Adulting is Hard

Do you all ever experience or have the same thoughts as I had when we were young, we all wanted to grow up quickly and be an adult immediately? Was it the fact that now I'm closer to death that I am afraid of growing old now? The concept of death is so imminent as the people around me are aging as well. In mandarin, there is a term called "生老病死" that describes the cycle of life. The literal translation is Live,Old,Sick,Death. I'm afraid i am going out of context now, my thoughts are so incoherent and noisy. Will blog again when my mental state are better.