I'm Sad T^T

I think too much.

Title explains its self. I have many thoughts many ideas that I could not archive, yet my brain refuses to let go. In my mind all I wanted to do was spend money! Simply wish I could stop giving myself all these useless stress!

a belated post.

I went to Batam some weeks ago, nothing to see there :D
Did some minor sugery ): And while i was in the hospital alone i did many reflection on my life and how i have been living life. And also my past failed relationship.

We have broken up because i loved who i was and he was never going to love me for me. And many times love is just simply not enough to mantain a relationship if we shared different values. Life is already hard enough and times i needed someone to support my flaws instead of fighting about it. I refused to change.

And back to now, i am really trying to change to be a better person but it is so tiring. I know there is many bad traits in me that needed to be changed but things don't just happen over night. In the end love do conquere all (:

Happy in advance Valentine's day Mr Cat!

Eating Grass. 明言 by Queen. ( my colleague )

Remember my previous blog title? It was " Chicken Pox Dilemma ", due to some unfortunate events i have caught that virus just few days before my surgery. Thus i have to postponed the op plus it was on a Christmas Eve.

I couldn't go out and celebrate and i couldn't do many things! That includes working!
And some days ago i actually 反脸 with my mother. Check the tweets for more info. So i will be out on my own, paying for my own expenses. So it is very important to work or else i could not pay my bills and hospital bills! I don't even have money to eat!

I am very glad and felt lucky that my boyfriend was with me all these days. When i was first diagnose with Chicken Pox he stayed behind and took care of me despite knowing that he will catch the virus cause he said that he didn't have Chicken Pox before. ( Turns out his uncle said that he have it before, just could not remember) but still....So  感动 lor ~ ( fake sob ) .

Eating grass everyday now, my life is getting so depressing day by day. Okay i'm not really eating grass but it's instant noodles. Same right? Plus boyfriend is eating the same thing as me! 辛苦你了!

Right now basically i am at home trying to recover asap so i could go out to work again! Hwaiting!
And...birthday just passed me by...so that makes me 20 already! Le sigh ~

I should not be so useless 两手空空 with no savings and such...Consider it a new year resolution ( late one )

Lastly, without you Mr Meow i don't think my life would be this awesome. Thank you for always being there for me the pass 2 years, time really flies! We have our ups and downs, quarrels and fights but till the end you never once gave up on me, always tolerating my shit attitude and mental health state. Always nagging at me and getting nagged by my mother, yet you stayed on with me. I know you're going NS soon, you are worried about me right! I know! :D
Baby just don't think so much. Le me Gusta you ~

Chicken Pox dilemma

Went out on 6/1/2012. Wasted money on taxi fares #LikeABoss
MegaFlea was such a disappointment!
I wonder when will i be able to get back to work?
 

Still Alive

Dead Cat

I must make up my mind. It's not a simple decision. It will change my life no matter what choice i made. Think caefully...
But i already know what i wanted.

Fat or Skinny?

Weight myself few days back. I was gasping for air as i was thinking in my head "WHAT THE FUCK" i have gained 20kg in 1 year time. Yes 20 FUCKING KG!
I'm not joking seriously, i weight like 75kg now! SO MANY FATS!

OMFG and i'm too LAZY to excersie man...Shall eat ham steak everyday till i slim down back to 55 kg :3

Still...the fact sucks to the max knowing that 20kg is some kid in my workplace's weight...FML
Someone just kill me please!

Blame my stupid mouth and tummy for always eating and growling.
Hate hate hate!