#foreveralone

Maybe I am not trying hard enough.
Maybe I am not caring at all.
Maybe I am just simply useless.

Just maybe...

I may laugh out loud.
I may shrugged things off.

Things are not as simple as it is.
I just can't wash clean away the emotions.

The grieving part isn't over for me i guess.

So don't bring Her/Him into the topics. I hate remembering those feelings.
I can still feel the pain being inflicted upon me by them like it has just happen.

I missed you.I hope with death you find peace.

Nasty words do comes out from my filthy mouth many times. But you know I do love you.
Maybe I wasn't the apple in you eye among all the grandchildren's
But as they always says. "The apple don't fall very far away from the tree".

And to the one I buried deep inside.

Why do you still make me feel the same as I was before?
I hate being weak. You are my weakness. I long to burn you away.

Stalking, casting a shadow within me.

Forever and always, I am no longer myself. Merely just a shadow of my prime state.
Here stood was just an empty cast.

For my love ones.

I will still smile and shine brightly for you.
But bare in mind. Deep within Me still contains a beast waiting to consumes her.
Slowly poisoning and threatening her soul.

Just quietly waiting for a chance to lash out.
Stalking the prey like a true predator of the night.

Filled with angst and hate. Pain doesn't loom far away.

Release me.

Offer me the Peace.

-Momo