Sad Post

Ytd, one of my hammie "melon" bite a hole and escape but my ah mah rescue it, but just 6.10pm today, i found my ham ham died.
Maybe ham ham know he is going to die that's why he escape?
Anyway i'm a bad owner i should not own any pets from now on, the other ham ham is healthy now, but my mum wants him gone T.T
I'm don't know what to do, seeing them grow, bring them to see their daddy when i first gotten them.Until now i still don't dare touch them super failure.Fcuk hate myself.

Don't stop the rain.

Shattered to pieces, is there anything you don't trust me enough?
Why would i share all of me when you're the one whose hiding all from me.All i think, it only rips me apart while trying hard to sew it back.An cycle i'll never get out.

While feeling down and drunk man makes me have a friend to chat throughout the fcuking bus journey home, well i'm lucky cause i won't be spending 45mins in tears :C
that idiot drunk until like shit then his wheelchair bond la but....noisy to no end, keep shout n shout n shout!

Sleep, my sweat keep drip inside my eyes, u know la sweat got salt so u know how mother screwing pain it is.

Ice-Cream.

Boring day, brought vanilla ice cream, plan to eat later while watching star awards later.Been 2 years i have not watch star awards, but this year is special, got ruan jing tian!!!!!!!
Dear live me alone at home since he said raining haix.

Friday, its a friday baby.

Miss Chen you are boring, didn't anyone tell you?
Sleeping and listening to my mp4, stupid lesson, why friday so fcuk up?


Johnny got new movie hahahahaha
i wan go watch.

Sick

Did not attend school, was sick real bad, doc say i got fever but it does not feel like one.

I love school<33

I realised just how much i love school, so tiring but its worth it.
Love my bf, but idk he love me not :x!

Lying might be the most fun thing i ever had.

Tomorrow is school, infact i really love my school though its as run down as possible.Canteen auntie is nice, classmates like the malay girls group is nice to me.Amanda being a good friend, felicia the office class one is nice, meeting everymorning n go home together.
I hate my sec days, lesson is boring but its only 8 months JIAYOU~
GPA 4.0 hahaha.


I'm still thinking what cca to join ?
My boyfriend is acting like a bitch who likes to assume things n put words in my mouth :X

Loving the life i led now, less dependent on others and more independent myself :D
More time wasted listening to radio den calling others.
I'm not sad anymore, not crying alone anymore, love myself and only myself atleast i know i won't hurt myself.

Fun in te afternoon sun :D

So hot can?
But it was fun washing dad's bus lol.Anyway i should upload a video about it later.
Don't peek your head into other's privacy when you don't like people intruding yours.

Its not me.

I wonder why do my sorrows just blown away when i hear your voice.FUCK.I keep tell myself to ignore you.FUCKFUCKFUCKOFF!Stop being so weak can?I hate you, seriously Huimin i think you should just go n fuck off and die.Weakling asstard, you can't for shit you can't study.you fail at every single things you do.Stupid stupid girl.cry all you want at the corner till you rots n die.Fuckyou.

i like staying at home, you like going out
i like talking to you, you like talking to your friends
i like eating noodles, you like rice.
i like being alone, you like the crowds.
i like being with you alone, you like to not be with me.
i love you, but i can't feel your love.

Secondhand Serenade - Your Call.

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your, what's your...)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
x4
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Fcuk Sun n get shagged real bad.

School is fun for Mrs Tahir class lols, weird as it seems i like her attitude n bitchiness.Then came Mrs Lo?
I don't know who lah, but she is okay okay.
Fcuk worst thing that happen is teacher call Miss Tan, wah sibeh chio but sibeh boring also.Her lesson is what student development one lah, but after she intro herself she keep yapping about how her dad died in a car crash in msia and die in a so call rocker way cuz his dad was impaled to n bleed to death =.='

Not trying to be rude but 30 mins of my life gone just like that.
My Yea my CA is not as bad as he seems.

Finish school at 11.17am cuz Ms Tan let us go for our lunch.
Eat, then walk to J8 meet Nikky.
2.25pm - watch F&F4!
But compare to 1 n 2 it sucks.
Finally finished at 4+pm, wanted to go lan but i'm super dead tired and the sun is killing me!


Now home at 6pm blogging.Might update.

爱一直在。

永远没有人知道我的思想,梦想。但只有你，我最关心的，我不在乎你不理解我。
只有求你爱我。
这只是简单的希望我能要求。

Time for anything.(like folding stars for bf :X )

On Monday first day of school, i ran away already.So disappointing with myself can?
Fcuk la i want people to call me not i call others first can?
Feeling so 'bu yao lian'.Remember the motto 'Tomorrow will be better!'
*continue chanting 1x*


think dear don't see me one whole day also like nth like that
or am i thinking too much, look down on myself more n more each day haix

独自面对 problems yourself, like there are things that can't be able to share the load off so...i don't know..rotting, now my mind only tells me to top my class top 3 i okay liao lah...study is not a word that appear long enough for me to take action, so i shall take the hobby of studying.Nb study is also hobby hor lalala~






PS:i love you.
PSS:lonely is never a thing u'll know.Love you.

Rash sucks my dick.

Fcuk the sun nowadays, the ray is like will eat your skin one larh kao!
CA says something about blogging i forget about it already.Love dear.Muacks.
Mustbespecialthatswhyinthatorangecolor.

School seems like grabbing my throat down lately.
See doctor like wait very long at the reception, forget alot of things, especially bad stuff, regaining my emotions.Love<33=Hatetake your pick.
I go sleep already, its 12am+

stabbing the tummy

always see movie the actor kana knife on the tummy jiu die liao, true not?
anyway my cousin's bf kana kidney failure one word, sway.
missing dear's stubby haha face always tio poke >.<
sleep well ah marco<3.monday school start liao, wising to drown myself in school work or something, nowadays when i'm alone i start to think nonsense like very sad stuff, dun wan say liao i shud go sleep.
post one very cute picture of hubby now.

can u find my darling?very easy lah hahaha...

Say To-Ma-To <3

I like to poke my fork into the tomato and grilled over the fire and eat :D
Shopping later, you will never what i found on Google !
so fcuking cute la, hahas i got permission then i post here.Anyway i've felt restlessness this few days fighting with my own brain.Still i think i was never good for you.I'm not smart, very stupid and ugly .

Bored Shitless

Since i can't sleep i shall blog!
Watch that stupid Jackie Chan movie, wanted to catch my idol's new movie "sniper" but forget it, Xiao ming can wait but EDC can not wait *insert insult*
Well lucky got 吳彥祖, never like him anyway but look, his hair awwww...my dear one better don't have bald spot, its a joke with dear la.


Time flies so fast i can't catch it and enjoy, things change, environment change, music gene change, fashion change, even whom i never thought would, also change.
Sigh, 10 months already, still remember 10 months ago that day walking at Ecp talking everything under the sun :D
But still why on the BUS!!!
I don't care propose again heh heh~


Monday start school already, meeting new people.Sigh.I dislike socializing how?
I used to hate my life but loving each day now cause dear will be there each day not literately, just there when i could contact him.Staring into space or just lying down beside him saying nothing.
I hate people controlling me so usually when i know someone whose is like that i faster run.

Blog again soon.

Now is more on serious stuff.

Just blog an entry 5 mins ago, but now is a serious post to myself.
I realized i've been falling down and woke up much further then where i'm i fallen down.Losing my memory every now and then.Crap what wrong with me?

Change.

I'm going to cherish my Boyfriend form now onwards.This few days was the worse day of my life that i'm eating difference pills at the same time.Crazy me, but this time i understand that people will never forgive you always, sorry dear i promise i'll listen to you form now on.Cant wait to see movie with you.
Muacks.

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Our story ends, now i'm going to open new chapters of my life.
Maybe being friends its much better right.I've never change for anyone but forget about it, you say its not like ur gone, correct, but u brought my happiness away and never to be seen again, those memories we share it's not like ....i don't know how to say hahas.
I shall end it now why should i cling on to it when maybe history will repeat?
No more heartbreaks for me no trouble for you.


Single is not as bad as it seems, but need time to get used to.
ByeBye to my boyfriend, hello to new friend.

Random.

很久以前，有一个女孩认为，她可以克服任何强劲地问题,可
是,当一个人伤害了她的那么痛苦,她从不相信爱情了，直到一个人出现在她的生命。
但她害怕她将再次受到伤害，她变得如此幼稚,这就是为什么他们总是争吵,甚至一点点小事。
现在，女孩已经意识到，这一次她是爱上了那个男人。

老头跟老娘只有一个线地差异，为什么他们总是有东西阻止他们呢?
曾经是如此热爱的情侣,为什么彼此不会相互理解？
如果他们这样做了，他们将不会在这个烂摊子哭。
只要老娘不那么幼稚, 他们可仍然在一起。

Please Kill me.

Never thought this would end sooner den i have ever imagine.
Who can i blame other den myself.For getting used n ditch, oh my life please end now thank you.

Just 3 more days baby, i'll always love you more den myself but you choose those roads, i've nothing to say anymore bye Marco, bye to myself too.

Twilight Zone.

With failed life 3 years ago, i never wanted to waste my time on a relationship with no future, my youth, my time, will some day all gone.Selfish i am, maybe i'm a coward afraid of heart breaks.

For a successful relationship there must be trust.
How a sad case give me, let me die la cb!



I think the problem lies with me thou, fcuk like that how i live?
Sorry qing ai de, i can't pass through myself which feels skeptical almost everything.Facing dawn with my sleepiness but just won't fell asleep.

Mentos

I have words left unsaid , afraid i might just regretted saying it.Very sad now.

10 more days.

Haha i'm in love with Billy Zane lols.
Anyway school is starting my money problem is a pain in the ass.