Tuesday, June 21, 2016

Making Sense

I'm not sure for how long more can I handle this. Everything just seems so foreign and different when you decide to step out of your comfort zone. Time also seems like running out pretty quickly, having to to squeeze in so many appointments in that short span of time and sleeping 4-5 hours daily does have its negative impact on me. Even when my body is screaming for help but my mind just refuses to stop. Yet I refuse to give up, stubbornness at its finest.

I just want to curl up on my bed and stop thinking, stop doing anything. Having to wake up alone, surrounded by silence is pure agony. The room just seems so big and empty when you are alone. All loneliness that is felt were amplified even more when staring at the ceiling, pure emptiness.

I keep telling myself it is no use to loathe whatever situation that I am in but to carry on moving forward and over come the challenges. But in the end I'm still made out of flesh and blood, I'm tired.

Can I take a rest now?

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