Darkness From Within

There are two sides to a coin.

So do a person.

I believe everyone also have two kind of personality. One to show the world and one that are kept lock deep inside. Also known as a dark side. But unlike most people, I don't have the fortune to control my urges. When it kicks in, I sort of turn into a different person. And I kind of like it. Temporary lose myself and let my inner demon take control, do things I normally wouldn't dare try. 

As much as I preached about having positive energies, I'm very attracted to people who are sad, negative. People who embraced their dark side. And at the end of the day, if he/she is willing to let me even just a glimpse into their soul, I don't know why but I will have a sense of satisfactions, seeing the vulnerable side to them.

I'm such a oddball.

Truth to be told, it will always be an eternal battle from within who will take control over this vessel of mine. 

No matter how happy or sad I am, I will always have a secret which can't be shared, a desire I can't pursue and a past that I'm too ashamed to face.

And hopefully, at the end of the day.

I just want to have a night of peaceful sleep.