BTO Journey - Prelude

It all started when scrolling through social media and I came across the sales launch on Tengah plot. So me and Mr Ng started conversing and gotten mildly excited on the topic as the plot was going to be a new town and major development was going to happen. Reasons for paying such attention was, my house is just facing across it!

I believe it was a spur of a moment and we thought to ourselves why not we try putting down $10 and ballot for a flat in Tengah. That was in May 2019. We didn't do it in the end after much discussions with family and friends. Yes, we did put on our thinking cap after all and not get rash with our decisions. 

Another few months past, we saw new sales launch on November 2019. As Mr Ng was staying in Tampines, Tampines Green Spring caught his attention as the plot is in a very idea position surrounded by malls, transports and amenities all within reach. 

A part of me was hesitant as I have lived in the west side of Singapore all my life! However after looking at the conveniences that I could get here I was convinced and we place a $10 to ballot here. 

On 12 November 2019, I balloted for the first time in my life! Achievement unlock! So we waited, like school kids waiting anxiously for the report card. Only that we are just waiting for our balloting queue results. I would like to point out that we ballot under the Married Child Priority Scheme (MCPS) to increase our chances. Everyday I would check HDB's website to look at how many people have balloted and my heart sank further and further as each day goes by. The last I saw was that there is 14 couples to 1 unit in Green Spring! 

On 4 December, the BTO Telegram chat group that I have followed (yes, I kiasu) started to have people announcing that they have received their results. Quickly I went to check my email...

Guess internally I was already half expecting this result to happen. As remember I said the last I saw was 14 to 1 unit?...

We saw that on May 2020 there is going to be sales launch in Tampines again, we so decided to wait and try again. But who would have expected that COVID-19 would wreck havoc and changes everything that we know of. The government announce that May's BTO exercise will be postpone to August 2020 due to circuit breaker measures implemented. 

I guess that was a blessing in disguise as that would mean that there is a merge of 2 sales exercise which means that the pool of balloters will be diluted! *Rubs hands in glee* After all if you were to research, August's BTO exercise is very exciting at Woodlands, Darkota, and Pasir Ris.

We stick to our original plans and looked only at Tampines. There is 3 plots available for selections, Green Crest, Green Glade and Green Opal. 

Waited patiently for August to come, and the moment I received notification from HDB that the BTO exercise is open. Immediately started looking at the website and placed my $10 bet again!

After some agonizing wait, checking and chatting up with people in the Telegram group. They said results is out! I told myself, at least let me get a number even if it means getting a number beyond the available flats allocated. 

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I GOT A QUEUE NUMBER! AND IT'S 5X!

Immediately I called Mr Ng to inform him of the good news! I'm really beyond shock and excited...I message my ex classmate to inform her as I knew she also balloted for Tampines. I guess high chance we might be neighbors as we are both eyeing on the same particular plot. 

Now, we are just waiting for HDB to update us our appointment for selection and place a $2k booking fee on the unit we wanted. Current damage invested. $20. 

This is the pricing of Green Spring...lucky we dodge a bullet and did not get a unit here. So expensive! 

A friend of ours have gotten a unit here. His 4 room flat cost $400k+!!!

Well, have checked based on the level and units that we wanted. The unit we are eyeing is going to be $370k+...Hopefully we get what wanted. Understand that queue number 3x has been called for appointment somewhere in 6 October 2020...I guess we are not far behind. Now just playing the waiting game again.

Random Happenings

 So...what usually happens during weekends is rides and rides and rides with fellow like minded people and dates with the bf. Since we can't go across the borders and most entertainment establishments is still closed. So with nothing much to do, just ride on~

on our way to Putra Delicacies 

I was sitting on another bike :x 

Cause I needed to feel the movements? of the bike. Won't reveal for now. 

Caught a Chopper wearing Mike's outfit. 
I think most of the riding kaki's thinks I'm still a kid by donating coins for me to catch.

Random Ice-Cream Date

Address is here.
Food's great!

Jurong Hill!

Dedication of a photographer!

What a SCAM!

So here is what happen, this tower of Coca-Cola cost SGD $50! SMLJ!

Is a place just beside Jurong Bird Park, the establishment is called Sing & Dine or something. When we ordered they did not inform us of the price (our fault for not asking as well). So all towers of drinks cost $50 Nett including beer. What a rip off! Boycott! 

Coping with Circuit Breaker

Updates: I didn't know I actually did a draft back in 7th May 2020. 

Doing the continuous update now (6th September). Many things happen during these last few months, but I haven't been doing much recordings of my day to days.

Below pictures were items that was brought before May 2020, 2 months into circuit breaker where I started buying things online to pass time.

Hair Dryer Brush thingy.

Free gift from Shopee for first purchase.

Muji inspired diffuser 

Anyway those were just the very beginnings of what was brought...I end up buying more stuff from Taobao and even did a mini room make over which I will do in a separate post.

Circuit Breaker

How is everyone doing? Our government has introduced a Circuit Breaker measures about a month ago to reduce the community spread of the virus. Where all citizens are to remain at home as much as possible, and leaving the house for essential things only. Many establishments are closed and non-essential services have to work from home.

This disrupts our daily routines and causing quite a bit of stress for many. I included. New semester commencing next week, everything is being done through virtual classrooms. I foresee this will be a challenging task for me. Nonetheless, it will also be an interesting way to study.

Stay safe everyone!

Trying to be Healthy

Never have I ever thought that this day would come where I start being so conscious about myself. Complacent would be the word I use for my chronic laziness. Yes, I am AWARE I'm lazy AF! 

Fun fact, or not. I used to be clinically diagnosed with Hyperthyroidism when I was a teen. Where according to Google, it is a condition that occurs when your thyroid gland is overactive and produces an abnormally high level of thyroxine, a thyroid hormone that influences several mechanisms in your body, including your heart rate, body temperature, use of fats and carbohydrates, and protein production. That means, no matter how I eat, I remain skinny! But the side effects would be forever feeling lethargic and my heartbeat would race even during sedentary leaving me breathless even by walking a short distance. I would sleep for hours and hours (I still do some days during the weekends). Anyways, I went to get treated and the rest is history. And my weight just went up and never came down ever since. 

I guess I never really felt the urge to do something about the weight, I was just being ignorant and trying to live my life. Yes, along the way I did try to diet and such without success and I thought that maybe I could live with the excess weight. From size S, I went to a size XL, like wtf?! I just let myself go like this. From BMI underweight to overweight now. Oh joy! I'm unsure what struck me actually, I just suddenly have the urge to stay fit and healthy. So I started to change my diet a little and went to the office gym during lunch hours. Honestly, I do not know what I am doing in the gym also haha. 

Well since I visit Decathlon - Singapore Lab quite often (cause bike gatherings always Kallang and is 24hours) I notice a section where there is an ActiveSG booth which allows testing of one's fitness level and such. So being curious I went and tried, the results were being sent to your email. I will spare the gory details of how fat I am now. But I am trying to make an effort to lose my body fat. Yes, fats. I learned not to get affected by the numbers on the weighing scale as I could be working out and gaining muscle mass and water retention may happen during the recovery period which will lead to the numbers on my scale to increase. Can you imagine how upset I was every morning weighing myself to realized I gain weight even though I started to exercise! I will continue to monitor and see whatever I am doing now is effective or not. 

Due to Covid-19, there isn't much activity I can do as of now since social distancing is the key to fight this virus. Staying home as much as I can. Just hope this pandemic would go away soon. Stay healthy everyone!

Adulting is Hard

Do you all ever experience or have the same thoughts as I had when we were young, we all wanted to grow up quickly and be an adult immediately? Was it the fact that now I'm closer to death that I am afraid of growing old now? The concept of death is so imminent as the people around me are aging as well. In mandarin, there is a term called "生老病死" that describes the cycle of life. The literal translation is Live,Old,Sick,Death. I'm afraid i am going out of context now, my thoughts are so incoherent and noisy. Will blog again when my mental state are better.

I am 28 years old

Time seems to pass by quickly when you are having fun. We are 14 days into the year 2020 already and have celebrated my 28th year into existence in this world. Still letting this reality slowly sinking into my head that I am no longer in my mid-twenties and that the late twenties has arrived. People getting married, having children and moving became a common topic and more or less I should have figured how my life should roll already right?

Anyways, this year's celebration was a little different and special. No more #foreveralone at Fong Seng with my Four Leaves cake. Instead of 1, I got 2 Four Leaves cake HAHA!

This first was given my colleagues, they caught me by surprise. 

I kid you not, i got 2 same cakes in the same day!

Really thankful for the well wishes and making the start of my year great, let's continue to carry this positive energy throughout! 

An ending, a Beginning

I know I know, I'm 2 days too late to be writing this post when usually people do these on the last day of the year to reflect on their achievements. As I have a lousy memory, I only have a vague recollection of what happened during 2019. But overall I am very thankful to the people who have stayed through with me despite my lousy personality. Well, here is some highlights that happened in 2019.

January
Celebrated my 27th Birthday at Fong Seng Nasi Lemak


February
What happen here? No picture, nothing...

March
I gotten a new Scooter (Yamaha Xmax300) name Sally. Best decision ever to be made.

Met up for gatherings with Singapore Female Riders.


April
Went for a short ride with Scoot Away to Kukup on Sally.

Went rounding with WeiJhin and his friends, sticking out like a sore thumb. Pretty self explanatory here.


May
First-ever road trip to Genting via a motorcycle as pillion. Maybe one day I will ride up myself, but that is if I can stop being so lazy. I have never ventured beyond Melaka as I always find the journey so much boring through and fro, plus I worry too much on bikes breaking downs and such. Respect Valerie who traveled 4 countries on her own. I doubt I will ever have the courage to do so, yet. 


June
Usual meet ups for dinner and gatherings with #Scootawaysg , gotten Regine to join us since she brought a Xmax 300 as well.


July
Collected my free rack and box which was later sold to someone. They still owe me a helmet ._.


August
Invited my friends to attend Sentosa GrillFest with me for good food and company.

Charity Ride with #Scootawaysg to Loyang Tua Pek Kong.

Went to the airport to send off Hosea and his friends for their motorcycle touring in Japan.


September
Celebrated Mid-Autumn festival at Kent Ridge.



October
Went to Bangkok with Mr Ng, Regine and her mom.


November
National Biker's Weekend 2019

Artbox Singapore 2019

BTO-ed like a typical Singaporean but unfortunately I failed to even get a number.

December
Attended cousin's wedding in Taiwan.


I'm really glad that 2019 had been a fun and fulfilling one, made friends and enemies along the way. Had a minor scare with my father's illness, but alls well end well okay? Letting go of toxic people who contribute nothing but negativity in my life, and regain my own identity back.

2019 list that I do for myself every year.
Fulfilled ♥ Simple happy life. But ♥ I still didn't have the chance to go Japan was not achieve. Another year of not going Japan. Can I go Japan in 2020? So here is 2020's list of things that I want to do.

2020 To Do List

♥ Visit JAPAN!
♥ Graduate from UNI!

♥ Clear my debts and be debt free!

♥ Start my savings account.

♥ Remain Happy and Positive as always!

Post #860

The days of events are whimsical as ever. In a span of a month, I was almost thrown with an idea of a child losing her parents. The ideology was imprinted into my head, that ultimately death is an eventual process for everyone. Unless you are some immortal beings, where context of time, life, and death does not exist. Reality as follows, trying to come into terms with it does hit me quite badly.

However, things for now seems to be stabilize for awhile. But for how long? Soon, this pain will arise again and I have to faced it truly. I'm really thankful for people around that supported me in the time of need, always making sure I am okay or if I needed any assistance. Well dad, I guess my "strong" support will give you confidence to accept your treatment plans. I still want you to see me graduate from my Uni, and well if is ever possible. Me getting married off.

I wasn't the best daughter, nor was I the worst. Yet with my flawed character you still loved me unconditionally as best as a father could. As Asians, we do not openly speak of love and affection out-rightly. I just want you to know, I love you too papa. Please don't leave me yet.

Post #859

Are things starting to roll on its wheels? The beginnings of my twenties were spent improving and correcting my mistakes. In my mids of the 20s, I thought I was on track to somewhere only to pull an e-brake and did a 180 turn to another direction in life.

Now, towards almost the end of my 20s. I am going somewhere but nowhere at the same time. This is just so confusing to me when it gives me anxiety just thinking about it.
Ugh!

Now I can only hope, whichever the universe has prepared me for, is gonna be something positive. It has taught me enough about love, heartbreak, wisdom, pain, healing and starting over. Meeting people, watching them leave. These were life experiences that nothing can be traded for. However not many will remain unscathed, some just simply don't recover from it.

3 months till year 2020, may I suggest that year 2019 has been treating me well so far?

Renew Road Tax

Haven't Blog in awhile already, was busy with many things. Slowly but surely moving together with the flow of life. 

I brought a new 2a Scooter somewhere in March 2019, the model is Yamaha Xmax300 (there is bike group for it also!). Anyways, the purchase was from Mah Pte Ltd under the recommendations from a friend who also purchased his Xmax with them. No comments on the service or after service, I just went down and made the necessary payments and that's all.  

Well, it is almost 6 months since I owned the bike, and I had to do the renewal of road tax...kua kua kua...

Nowadays, everything also digital. I did not even receive any letter reminder which I usually get till I was browsing my SMS inbox (who even uses SMS nowadays?) and realized I had a message indicating there were 2 electronic letters form LTA! 

I wonder how the seniors or less tech-savvy people are gonna react to this new paperless system. Since we are already in the digital era, I decided to renew my road tax online. No longer do I have to go down the office and show them the documents, even insurance can be purchased online. 

You can visit this Link to check your vehicle road tax details, the expiry etc.

Next, go on ONEMOTORING and you can renew your road tax!

So easy!

Once the payments have been made, a email will be sent to you together with a PDF of your receipt. 

Hope to update this space more often. I wonder.

I Blocked You Today

The scale has always been on a tipped side. One party always giving in and the other just simply take them. I was too closed within your circle, it became a point that no matter what happens. I'm always a safety net for you. To catch you when you fall, but who is there willing to do this to me?

I felt like a beggar, where I was rejected and thrown out of your life. Yet, you were nice. You offer scraps of leftovers of love you have left for me. You offered me friendship. It seems like a harmless move, to make you become a bigger magnanimous person you are. In my own twisted mind, I felt I was being pitied. My own ego and pride is wounded, my dignity being trampled on the ground. This is how I felt, and this is not what you have thought.

Stirring myself up emotionally, creating drama was all on my own. I accepted it. Let me wallow in my own sorrow and lick my own wounds that I have brought upon myself. It is not your fault that I am being like this. You don't have to feel responsible for the life that I have, the moment you have decided that you wanted to leave. You already left, don't tell me things like you didn't abandon me all the way. You are still there for me when I needed you and such. What difference does that make? The trust and faith I have placed on you, to be there for me, it's gone and will never be the same.

I'm tired of hurting. This is the human side of me, deciding the best path of recovery. To be selfish and cruel to me. Eventually one day I will wake up and the thought of you will never come up to my mind anymore.

Jealousy kills.

And I decided the best way is to stay away from the root of it, You. This way the green monster will never be able to reach me. Poisoning my mind to a point where I can't tell the difference anymore.

Please, carry on and give your attention to others who need it more. Slowly I will forget about those painful goodbyes, and appreciate that endings are actually beautiful beginnings. Maybe I won't be someone's options of choice, that maybe one day someone will love me and accept my weirdness and keeps on choosing me and nobody else.

We are humans, it is normal to make mistakes. The very first person I should forgive is myself, that I refused to make an effort to not give you up. I'm feeling sorry that after being tinge with this endless cycle of sadness, I can't smile as much as I want to and having to pretend everything is alright. To my family and friends, I am sorry that I could not participate in with much enthusiasm even if I tried fitting in. My mind is elsewhere, and the very existence of my being felt more like a burden each day. I am my own worst enemy, allowing self-doubt to cloud my own judgment.

I'm shutting myself out, most importantly to purge you out of my system. I'm sorry I can't be the person you want me to be and you can't be the person that I want as well.

Bye.

What Could Have Been

After all that have been said and done, there are many things as humans we have many things that are beyond our control. We can't predict when shit starts hitting the roof. All we can do is just watch helplessly when things unfold in front our eyes. At my current stage, i had what most basic humans have, a roof over my head, a career, graduating in another 1 and half years and friends who are concerned about my general wellbeing. What more can i ask for? 人是犯贱的 constantly seeking for more and never contended with what with have.

I do not like disclosing my personal issues online, i have grown out of it. Yet this platform's purpose is my personal ranting spot. Sharing my adventures and my growth as a person since i was 16. Struggles of just another human on this Earth. Social media had been a very toxic experience for me, it makes me yearn for the seemingly perfect life others have. It lowered my self-esteem as a person. Slowly but surely we move on, to newer pastures of life.

And this is me declaring that i would not let this small setback of my life to affect me anymore.

Goodbye to the love i have lost.

BBDC Class 2 Journey Part 4 (The End)

Seemingly from the title of the post, most would have known the answer by now that it's either I pass or I have failed and simply given up. I had to take 2 compulsory revision practicals before I am able to make any booking. So I just randomly picking out any dates, but I gave myself a week's distance between each revisions. 

It was a little depressing for me knowing that bumpy was the one that bump me off from passing my previous attempt at getting my license. So every single session I went, I spent most of the time repeating e-brake and bumpy. No matter how I tried, I just cannot meet the required timings. The posture and everything just wasn't correct for me. 

The instructors were really patient and kind and kept encouraging me and pointing out where I can do better or where my mistakes are at. I had to thank instructor Eddy for going the extra mile by going through bumpy with me on a single bike to let me have a 'feel' on how bumpy course feels like. It's quite thrilling for me, imagine 2 grown adults standing on the bike! Felt like a stunt women performing :x But alas, it work!

On April 5th 2018, Thursday. I went to get myself tested again. I gotten tag number 12. Previous number I got was tag number 5. In total, there were 26 people. Just class 2 alone already have 16, the remaining are class 2a's. They number according to nationality, followed by the age. So if you are a foreigner, your number would be right at the front. 

Interestingly, the BBDC instructor that oversee's that test that day was Shirley's husband. I was trying hard to not get noticed as I do not want anyone to know I was taking class 2. Oh yea, as we have 16 people taking class 2,  BBDC only have 14 bikes available for us. So the first 1 and 2 have to share with 15 and 16. Alternating with each other to warm up and test. 

I can't really remembered much on how I did, but there were 2 immediate failures. Both were taking class 2 and are ladies. Class 2a everyone pass. Guess who is the lucky girl that day :p 

It gives a difficult feeling inside me seeing the lady not being able to lift up the bike. Each time she is trying to lift the bike up, I'm also mentally wishing her the best. There was one point she almost did it, but she decided she can't do it anymore. The testers were nice by giving her time to breathe and try again and again. Until a point the tester said to her, "I give you one last chance, there are others who are taking the test as well". She tried. Staring at her defeated face, gives me a sense of dread, what if I can't? #FML.

Anyways....I pass with 18 points and zero Immediate Failures. I lost my result slip ._. But that's not the important point anyway.

Alright bye~

I no longer have to go back BBDC anymore!

Finding Life

In another few days, it would be the 4th Month of year 2018. Every single day, little by little, our time just ticks away slowly. Have you got the job you wanted? Visited the place you wanted? Or even settling down with the one you wanted and built a new life together? Or are you still struggling to find a foothold in this mess, that you call 'Life'.

One day, we would ceased to exist and become dead longer while we were alive. Why do we still wasting time, constantly dwelling on unhappiness, not moving on from the past?

Year 2018, I am 26.
I have not found my path yet.

BBDC Class 2 Journey Part 3

I know that the last post I did was in November. Currently it is already towards the end of March already. I had done my TP on the 1st March, but unfortunately my engine stalled at bumpy. That resulted in me falling off course and that was an immediate failure.

The waiting time is no longer 2 weeks, but a month later. In the past, the waiting time was 2 to 3 months? I wasn't really as enthusiastic as before, this is the last class of the motorcycle license to qualify to ride any CC of motorcycle in Singapore. But yup, am still commuting around in my 200cc scooter. Which could really explains how I feel inside. The COE is a ridiculous phenomenon in Singapore, paying SGD$8000 just for a piece of paper that entitles you to ride for 10 years. Imagine that ._. How much money do the government want to milk from us?

 Anyways, hopefully the upcoming test I can pass it. It is expensive to re-test as it is compulsory to attend 2 more revisions. My pocket burns a huge hole even before I buy a new bike :x

BBDC Class 2 Journey Part 2

23rd November 2017, Thursday. Did my second practical, lesson 2.01. The main focus on 2.01 is to memorize the test route, figure 8, crank course, e-brake and bumpy course. Could it be that I was destined to be a wet rider? Because this was the 2nd lesson I went and got drench by sudden downpour. I wasn’t confident enough for figure 8 as I suck at doing cornering but my timing was 9 sec. Class 2 have to complete figure 8 within 11 seconds. Nothing is perfect, when exiting I tends to do a wide turning. At e-brake, I fish-tailed ._. Oh wells, thankfully I did not fall. As for bumpy, class 2 requires more than 8 seconds. I only managed to maintain at 7.9 seconds. So yup, lesson 2.01 had to be repeated again.

BBDC Class 2 Journey Part 1

Decided to drag my lazy ass out on a Sunday and enroll myself into BBDC for my class 2 on 29th October. This enables me to ride any motorcycle 400cc and above. There are some requirements which I copied form BBDC's website.

ENROLLMENT REQUIREMENTS 
 · Physically and mentally fit.
· Possess a Class 2A Qualified Driving Licence for at least one year.
· Able to read at a distance of 25 meters and does not suffer from color-blindness.
· Must not accumulate more than 12 demerit points under Driver Improvement Points System (DIPS). · Must not have any Qualified Driving Licence/Provisional Driving Licence under revocation, disqualification or suspension.
· Enroll in person.

Unlike 2B or 2A, I no longer require to attend anymore theory lessons. More of like a wham bam whack situation whereby I paid for my registration, depositing money into my account and I can start my practical lessons the next available slots. 

So!

First lesson of practical 1.01 is done on 30th October, which is yesterday of this post I'm currently typing :p 

Took session 7 which is from 7.20pm to 9pm, but didn't fully utilize the timings as there was a thunderstorm last night, huge pouring rain is not a problem. The lighting was. 

2A and 2's practical lessons are done together as the test routes are the same. In total there were 5 students including me but all the others are taking 2A except me, is it a blessing or not? Since I can practice lifting the Honda Nighthawk all by myself, not. Once it's safe to proceed, instructor took us out to the circuit to familiarize the bikes as there is a power difference to the bikes we were used to, surprisingly I took it quite well! Yippy!

1.01 lessons are more on learning the test route and doing the plank and pylon slalom. Instructors want to see how well we can handle our bikes. Oh, remember I mention about lifting the dummy bike? In the end of the lesson after parking our bikes, instructor ask me to practice. Did it once without any assistance :x 

Was told to book 2.01 TEEHEE!

Have not booked any session yet, as I'm still trying to rush my assignments which is going to be due soon. Wish I could stop being so lazy...

Bye!

Post #851

There weren't any pictures nowadays on this space of mine, so I decided to upload some photos from my October album. Mostly are from Instastory, guess the cute little stickers won me over. 

Semester 2 is killing me!

It was monsoon season last few weeks, had been raining non-stop.

Pizza Night out with some close friends and love ones.

Feeling motivated after seeing someone's new Bae. Guess I have to start pushing myself to get a bigger Bae as well :x

Brought Samantha for inspection at Bukit Batok Vicom, as usual, it was quick and relatively easy for me. Maybe because I was riding a scooter...Anyway the photo have 4 scooters waiting line in line, and waiting for their turn. Including me as well, what are the odds. 

So this will be a warm up session for me? I'm going to be more active back here again. 

Tata~